I don't think there is a ceiling left in my house. i just blew up on Annette and telling her what a worthless parent figure she is. It is horriable. Doesn't do shit, lets her grandkids run around like mad people. It's Bullshit. I had 5 hours of sleep last night, and 4 the night before. so much is on my mind no one gets it. from my mom to denny and shit. Kandie and Daminan need to burn in hell and never come back cause i want to kill them, i haven't been this angry in so long, and i don't care anymore. Im done...putting up with all of them. its utter bullshit.

Hello out there internet world... So my step mother, rather Annette has her grandkids this weekend. and let me tell you a little bit about this fag heads. I LOVE KIDS! dearly. but these 2 omg. TRAIN WRECK. I feel bad for them because they are being raised by there grandparents while there father is taking care of his girlfriends 2 kids rather than his own, and there mother is christ knows where smoking pot. So yea, i feel bad for them... But that gives them absolutely no reason to come here and be the worst kids i have ever seen, worse than that super nanny show... Yeah that friggen bad. They act like wild animals. The girl is 7 sucks her thumb and i cant stand her. she pushes your buttons just to do it. then the boy is 6, kindergarten... and like i say, He's on dial up while everyone else is on DSL. sad... but VERY truthful. I am trapped in my house when they are here cause annette the only blood relative here doesn't know how to deal with kids but gets them every other weekend so me and my dad can take care of them... Pathetic!

 Hey! so pretty much all i have been doing latly is thinking about my life and how it isn't how i pictured it being 6 years ago. I thought i'd be happy and glad to be living each and every day... but that isn't how it is at all! Everyday i worry about people who don't even give me two seconds of there time because i am a nice person and shit. and im sick of feeling this way, i cant do anything without being miserable. i have a boyfriend who i swear doesn't care about me only when he wants something then he does... my family is worse than that. my sister is the only thing that matters for half of them and then the other half just doesnt care. My friends... well i only concider my self having one friend anymore cause the rest don't care about me either cause i have problems and im depressed... sorry not my fault all these bad things happened in my life and not yours... but i would never abonden ANYONE! who needed my help. It's Bullshit. let me tell you. i know this and i try to be happy and make everyone happy before even caring about myself. i don't care about me and i want people to care about me... just like i care about them. when that happens i will be officially. the happiest person alive!

but for now this is how i feel....